I hate others putting labels on myself.
I'm much more than the labels people put on me.
You know when this thought emerged?
Last week, someone I barely know approached me to ask me some tips.
Don't get me wrong, I don't mind and like helping others but if you're only gonna talk to me just because I got an award, I rather you not asking me anything.
Because I know for sure you wouldn't even look at me if I didn't receive that award.
I do not like the label they put on me. I'm beyond blessed and grateful for whatever I achieved but I feel it somehow comes with a price somehow.
Classmates who never cared about me before start asking me things, people lift me higher when I'm actually just a normal person like the rest of them. I'm nothing special, I feel I just got lucky. They have labelled me as the super smart person who they should only ask things from.
I'm tired of them putting it on me and when I suddenly don't do well, I'm suddenly nothing to them. It's like my worth to them is only determined by a mere alphabet on a piece of paper rather than how I treat them, which is something they should care more about instead.
It happened before, I used to get good grades when I was 13-15. When my grades dropped when I was 16, suddenly no one cared about me anymore. It made me upset and I don't want to go through that again. I'm not defining others or being friends with others just because of grades in their exams.
Instead, Look at me because of who I am, Talk to me because of how I behave with you not because I might seem advantageous to you.
Get to know me better, be friends with me, I'm definitely more than what you see.
I have a colorful personality, I'm angry about certain issues, I like cute things.
I am the only one who is responsible for putting labels on myself.
P/S: This is just an angry rant, hope it doesn't come out as me being ungrateful or anything xoxo
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