I remember when I was 16, I did not want to get left behind.
All my peers were talking about the famous tuition they went to.
I still remember the feeling it gave me, the insecurity that I didn't go for the best tuition,doubting if I were gonna be left behind or not achieve the A's I've desired.
Of course after getting my SPM results I laughed thinking how silly I was, I realized i didn't have to go for tuition in the first place, my school teachers were good enough.
Fast forward to 2019, the year I wanted to shine and take chances I can't help but wonder if I'm still behind.
I live in a competitive world where you need to be different from others
My thoughts are formed by thoughts of others.
I'm constantly seeking on what is the right way and letting everyone tell me what is right and wrong.
Sometimes different opinions contradict leaving me clueless
Me the clueless girl, always seeking advice from others,taking them blindly assuming that if they're coming someone successful, they should be telling the right thing.
When I don't do something everyone said I should do, I feel inadequate,feeling I'm already falling behind in this merciless rat race.
So am I really being left behind?
Or is it overthinking taking over me again?
